Lay your eyes upon the tragedy you have chose to create

You have chosen to convert me into your slave

Is it until the end of time you plan on torturing me?

Countless issues polluting me, you are one of many to blame

Lay those eyes upon me and realize what has been done

To the adolescent boy you have dictated to be your son

The boy who shall always view you as a wretched cunt

Deep inside your primitive mind, you know I am not your son

I have been forced to call you my mother for many dreadful years

And yet you still abused me, altered into one of my deepest fears

Abandoned me at my worse state, so that I may decay in the asylum

Ran away from me, into a black and empty horizon

The innocent appearance of a child

Haunting me within my dreams

His surname detached from the obituaries

Within all depictions, he appears nauseated

Within each dream of this poor child

I cannot help but feel discomfort

A feeling of unease shrouds me

Allowing the dream to become a nightmare

What is the meaning of this vision?

Surely this child cannot represent me

I search his grave to find an answer

Only to realize he never existed

The only knowledge I can leave with

Is a rather unusual name

The child has been given the name

Albeit

Regardless of where I find myself The blackened voices will follow Every passing year I have lived through They were the cause of my lacerated arms And no matter what I vocalize I will simply be told I am at fault And no matter what I tell them I will always be wrong I was thrust into the world and expected to mature I was never given the opportunity of childhood And the voices tell me, suicide is the only way out I do not see the purpose of persisting All that I have loved is laid to waste And the voice in my mind welcomes death The voice in my mind knows very well That I may ultimately surrender to life And no matter what I vocalize I will simply be told I am at fault And no matter what I tell them I will always be wrong

I am resting here by my lonesome

All of humanity finds my pain humorous

I am seething everlastingly

I have come to realize they could never understand

I am forced to converse with loved ones

I wish to be alone, but I have nowhere to run

Allow me to terminate these infernal cogitations

Before I speak the language of my regrets

All of humanity is plotting to harm me

All for absolutely no visible purpose

It has taken so long for me to see the toxicity

Of the species I live among

There is no light at the end of the tunnel

The day I left the womb, my spirit perished

I am nothing more than a dismal, bastard orphan

I have grown weary of this endless torment

I require the suffering of another mortal

Father of fathers, false familial figures

I wish for them all to experience my anguish

I am more than willing to blame mankind

Circumvent euphoria in the name of artistry

Surrender your heart to feelings of despair

Barricade all crevices, so that it may not leak in

Plummet your body into the shameful abyss

Forbidden is the consumption of joy

That is the law on the soil you stand

Reject all opportunities of delight

If you wish to set foot in my domain

Succumb to my desires

And in return, I shall create tragic sounds

Beg for mercy as I torment your broken soul

And you shall return home with a haunting self-portrait

Gaze upon the beauty of my work

For it is your own

Promise yourself to never return

I am amused when you lie to yourself

The innocence of a child, taken away

Taken into the woods, beaten and raped

Screaming at his mother, it's just a tantrum

If only I told you what happened that day

Another angel has fallen

Into the abyss of trauma

At the hands of his own

Flesh and blood

You motherfucker, you ruined me for life

All for your own sexual pleasure

And you never got what you deserved

Now I must live with this hatred

Another angel has fallen

Into the abyss of trauma

At the hands of his own

Flesh and blood

Father of fathers, I pray that someone fucks your skull

And leaves your bloody carcass in the mud

You fucking son of a

Bitch

Wow that's dark... I'd like to console your greveiences but I don't know where to begin.

Blades are clashing in the battlefield

The holy against the unholy

Bringing life to a bastard angel

Father, strike down these sinners

Strike down these sinners

Father, smite them through my hand

Your religious embrace within my blade

With each swing another life is lost

Not a single soul knows what will happen next

Not a single soul knows where they shall go

Heaven or hell, it is the only possibility

Question all in the warfare of the unholy

Seek and destroy those who sin

For we are justified in our actions

Unholy warfare, unholy warfare

Unholy warfare, unholy warfare

Behold the outcome of my actions

I have contributed to this masterpiece

A valley of decaying religious corpses

All gone with the swing of a battle axe

Father has not forsaken me

Father shall be very pleased

Pleased with me and my actions

This is the life I live

These lands are riddled with bodies

And spirits that I have sent to hell

I trespassed onto another man's soil

And took their lives away from them

Their blood is the air I breathe

The guts are the food I eat

Their land was taken from them

A kingdom fallen by god's command

Jesus can heal your pain. He was crucified to forgive sinners. He 🌹 again after conquring death... Do you want to know more or are you just looking for another score..

please do not bring your religion into my lyrical topic

Your innocence is completely unmatched

And I have grown absolutely attached

To the look of unconditional love inside

Those feral and beautiful eyes

Your eyes do not judge me the way humans do

Had you been a human, I could not love you

I could not trust you to love me back

You are the perfect companion for a heart that has gone black

Your innocence is completely unmatched

And I have grown absolutely attached

To the look of unconditional love inside

Those feral and beautiful eyes

You are oblivious to my constant struggles

You are unaware of life's chaotic troubles

You are one of the only living creatures I love

You will always be my baby even when you go above

I view my body as disgusting

I view my soul as nothing

I view my heart as blackened

After all that has happened

Nobody will ever understand my pain

Sometimes I wish to blow out my brains

This agony is just like heroin

It makes me high, when I slash my skin

Let the pain seep out

Allow my demons to bleed out

Let the pain seep out

Allow my demons to bleed out

Nobody will ever understand my pain

Sometimes I wish to blow out my brains

This agony is just like heroin

It makes me high, when I slash my skin

I find it fascinating how much you hurt me

It has been over a year and I am still not free

I am still chained to your evil, wicked heart

Am I truly in love, or is it just more pain for my art?

Regardless, I will never be able to see you again

And that is both a curse and a blessing

A whore like you would never love somebody like myself

You still haunt my dreams and it puts me through hell

I am dying to let this go, but it simply feels wrong

Even though you tortured me, I loved you after all

You lured me in to break my heart just like a succubus

I cannot understand relationships if I hated my first love

Thank you for teaching me to never take that chance

Teaching me that rage is the only outcome of romance

Your body and your fake smile is burnt into my head

This song is my gift to you, I wish that you were dead

Underneath the burning sunlight, we are imprisoned

Stripped of our humanity, no meat left on our bones

Refusing to care for our families, as survival becomes first priority

We are forced back to our natural roots, primal instinct takes control

It is sickening to think that our captors are just like us, mere humans

What makes a human being spiral into the ideals of a Nazi

Thoughts are racing, bodies breaking, human ashes pollute the sky

As we die with tears in our eyes, we never get a reason why

Experimented upon with surgical precision, begging for death to come

Take us away from this torturous concentration camp

Screaming into the blackened sky, what have we done wrong

And suddenly we are freed

The genocide was almost a success, we will never be the same

So many people, so many stories, so few survivors, haunted

People these days find it so funny, claiming to be against Nazis

They will never understand the horrors we have gone through

The holocaust is something that should never be forgotten

My ancestors have lived through hell on Earth, and people deny it

Memories of the holocaust will forever haunt these poor souls

Trivializing such a horror, will only bring it back

Animals are the greatest of healers

When my dog gazes upon me, I feel her

I always feel loved with her around

Without her, I would constantly feel beat down

And even though I know this depression will never leave

My beautiful puppy will always be here for me

And even though I know that someday she will die

I have decided to make the most of this time

Human love is so utterly conditional

And ever so unreliable

They will only love you if there is something to gain

They could never understand or care about your pain

And even though I know this depression will never leave

My beautiful puppy will always be here for me

And even though I know that someday she will die

I have decided to make the most of this time

Various open wounds are leaking out pus and blood

Feces pours out of the victim's urethra, forced fecaluria

This woman's corpse will be used to fuel my paraphilia 

Victimize, sodomize, necrophilia

A morbid fascination and sexual attraction

To the recently deceased controls my actions

I force my shaft inside, the sockets of her eyes

It brings me such delight, to make your body mine

Various open wounds are leaking out pus and blood

Feces pours out of the victim's urethra, forced fecaluria

This woman's corpse will be used to fuel my paraphilia 

Victimize, sodomize, necrophilia

I rip her bones out and force them back through her rectum

Fingers shoved inside her nostrils, ripping apart her septum

These cunts will only ruin your life, if you choose to let them

So take their life away, it's not like you're insane

We were all born with a sense of dread

Our upbringing decides if it goes to our head

No matter the outcome, what's done is done

I am forced to live with this depression

Poor, pitiful soul

I'll nurture you in this hellhole

Proceed to ignore all of your cries

If you want to that bad, then just die

Trauma within the mind will always remain

Until you blow it out of your brain

The pain shall seep out every individual cut

For the pain came from people within your blood

Cursed, am I

Guilty by association

A mindset of stupidity

Just because I knew that cunt

You think I approve what was done

I wish for a better world, free from any form of hate

And you choose to censor me, just because I knew him

When is it that you will learn, I have done nothing wrong

I have always expressed that I am against his actions

I knew what the pain of losing a loved one to a gun feels like

Ever since 5th grade, when my friend's life was taken

And to see people like Josh praise him, sickens me

"We lost a good musician today"

Fuck the Dayton shooter

I hope he's burning in hell

Connor Betts was nothing more

Than a fucking waste of space

The fact that smaller grindcore bands pay for his actions

Is bullshit and you know it, stop discriminating

True grindcore has been against shit like this

Ever since the fucking beginning

I knew what the pain of losing a loved one to a gun feels like

Ever since 5th grade, when my friend's life was taken

And to see people like Josh praise him, sickens me

"We lost a good musician today"

Writhe

Screaming through tears within my dreams

Nobody can hear my ear piercing screams

Is this a vision or a forgotten trauma

Each one always ends the same

I am aware that this is not real

So why the fuck am I so terrified

The only way to escape is suicide

Each dream ends with death

Lucid night terrors (x4)

With each night terror, there is a new way to die

It's as if a higher power is talking me into suicide

The voice inside my head tells me to kill myself

I just want to know who this voice is

It sounds quite familiar

I swear I've known this voice

For an eternity

And it's torturing me

Lucid night terrors (x4)

You claim to be a part of a religion

That teaches nothing but love and acceptance

And then abuse the child you adopted

For the music he likes, and his sexuality

You claim to be a loving mother

Even though you abandoned me

Raised me to hate my real family

By force feeding me filthy lies

You call yourself an old Christian woman

But all I see is an abusive fucking cunt

You call yourself my mother

But all I see is a hateful fucking cunt

You will never be my true mother

You will never deserve any love

I hope that you slit your wrists

Killing yourself would give me happiness

I want to rip my eyes from their fucking sockets

So much anger, so much hatred, so little time to act

I just wish that I could end my fucking life

But I don't have the guts, I'll just sit and writhe

Make a change or kill yourself

There is no between

That is what I tell myself

For the strong feast on the weak

Energy, energy, always put towards music

For it is my only reason to live

Relentless restlessness haunts me everyday

Thankfully I wouldn't have it any other way

Make a change or kill yourself

There is no between

That is what I tell myself

For the strong feast on the weak

My head is pounding from the voices screaming in my head

I'm waking up, feeling sick, wishing I was fucking dead

Nothing I do seems to have any shred of worth

My life has grabbed me by the throat and kicked me where it hurts

And I'm supposed to believe that it gets better

It's all a motherfucking lie

I don't believe that it ever gets better

Every year since 12, I've attempted suicide

Slashing into both my arms, the pain gives me a rush

Looking back at my childhood, crying for what never was

So much wrong with my head, after all I've been through

It's best to avoid me before, I take it out on you

And I'm supposed to believe that it gets better

It's all a motherfucking lie

I don't believe that it ever gets better

Every year since 12, I've attempted suicide

The world I see is truly cursed

The innocent always have it the worst

My past comes out in my outbursts

It's not my fault I'm so disturbed

I refuse to come out of my shell

The outside world is a rotten hell

Each passing day, I hear death knell

Ringing in my ears at 100 decibels

Death knell sounds off by nightfall

The sound leaks through the walls

Nobody but me seems to hear it at all

Why is it me that death chooses to call?

My loved ones believe that I am moonstruck

There's no way out of hell, I'm stuck

My thoughts continue to run amuck

I've gone insane, that's just my luck

I refuse to come out of my shell

The outside world is a rotten hell

Each passing day, I hear death knell

Ringing in my ears at 100 decibels

Death knell sounds off by nightfall

The sound leaks through the walls

Nobody but me seems to hear it at all

Why is it me that death chooses to call?

I cannot help but to notice

The rush of adrenaline that I get

Each and every time I kill

An enemy soldier with no regret

I feel no remorse

Not one shred of guilt

This was my choice

I cannot control my urge to kill

Oh, the wonders of war

This is my excuse to execute

Oh, the wonders of war

A mountain of corpses beneath my boot

Oh, the wonders of war

I live to cause others death

Oh, the wonders of war

A symphony of gurgling last breaths

They all say that war is hell

If that is true, then let me burn

I only want to see others die

To home, I never want to return

I feel no remorse

Not one shred of guilt

This was my choice

I cannot control my urge to kill

Oh, the wonders of war

This is my excuse to execute

Oh, the wonders of war

A mountain of corpses beneath my boot

Oh, the wonders of war

I live to cause others death

Oh, the wonders of war

A symphony of gurgling last breaths

When will you use that thing you learned?

"How dare you ask that question"

Respect is something that teachers must earn

Your packets require no intellection

You're printing out paper that means nothing

Saying it helps, we all know you're bluffing

You provide children with false education

Wondering why half your class is still on probation

Save our schools, and our children too

Save our schools, educate the youth

Save our schools, and our children too

Save our schools, educate the youth

Homework shouldn't even be a thing

The teacher should've taught us shit before the bell rings

Fuck the school system and fuck college

They do anything but boost your knowledge

You're printing out paper that means nothing

Saying it helps, we all know you're bluffing

You provide children with false education

Wondering why half your class is still on probation

Save our schools, and our children too

Save our schools, educate the youth

Save our schools, and our children too

Save our schools, educate the youth

Shotgun shells busting out the bitch's brain

Blow my load of gunpowder, I am not insane

Buckshot blowjob, lock and load her closed jaw

Nobody will find ya, cuz don't nobody know ya

Shotgun tip at the roof of her mouth

Blast that shit, watch the blood gush out

Blood spraying out like a motherfucking spout

Rip off both her titties, and gouge her eyes out

Sexually gratified by hearing all these cunts cry

I got all these worthless little bitches begging for their lives

Picking up a prostitute to fuck her til she bleeds dry

Then after I'm done with them, I watch those little cunts die

I am not insane, I am not insane

I am not insane, now take this bullet in your brain

I am not insane, I am not insane

I am not insane, now take this bullet in your brain

I am not insane, I am not insane

I am not insane, now take this bullet in your brain

I am not insane, I am not insane

I am not insane, now take this bullet in your brain

Why can't you see what I'm feeling isn't right?

Mommy your words cut me even deeper than my knife

I remember when we used to tally up my height

And even though I loved you, you still haunt me in the night

Tried to be your son, but you left me in the dark

Rotting by myself with a broken fucking heart

Beat me til I'm bleeding, the screaming left deeper marks

Now I can't get close to anyone, cuz nothing sparks

Mommy, why did you adopt me?

Just to fucking beat me

Just to fucking leave me

Hope you die soon

Mommy, why did you adopt me?

Just to fucking beat me

Just to fucking leave me

Hope you die soon...

12 long motherfucking years

Of bedsheets covered in blood and tears

You're one of my biggest fears

I dream about that house 200 days a year

Mommy, why did you adopt me?

Just to fucking beat me

Just to fucking leave me

Hope you die soon

Mommy, why did you adopt me?

Just to fucking beat me

Just to fucking leave me

Hope you die soon...

Ring me out for all I'm worth

Or at least what you think I'm worth

Expect me to be engaged at work

But you don't give me more than a day

Bust your ass, do our bidding

Eat nothing, until your shitting

Blood and water, sick and tired

We will squeeze you dry

Inflict pain upon myself

To distract from hunger

I can't pay for any food

Cuz I got bills up the ass

Bust your ass, do our bidding

Eat nothing, until your shitting

Blood and water, sick and tired

We will squeeze you dry